Nothing.

Sitting in a corner,
empty soul,
familiar thoughts.
when you realize
that there's nothing left to say
..when 'enough' becomes true
take the easy way out.
pack a pen and a notepad,
your Cd's and thoughts.
Take the plunge..
..and just leave.

She said..

..what say you?

L-O-V-E.

"so beautiful that it would torment an angel to insanity."

~William Blake

Stranger than Fiction..

"This is the nature of All Tragedies.
The Hero dies.
..but the story lives on forever".

... (part 2)

After an enlighten web-camming session with AG, of catching up and sneaky laughters'.A thought came into my head:
In relation to the previous post. this is possibly a continuation of that idea.
As human beings we very often take things for granted of things we own or possess,of people we know and have, of the life we live..
Its basically because by nature we are programme in a way that we are always in search of progress and development..
be it education, knowledge,money,sex,power, what have you?
the problem arises when we realize that we have forgotten the notion of contentment.
of appreciation.
of realization.
because as how i would usually claim, people are so caught up with their our own lives...
and to avoid the act of being bias( though on many occasions this has been proven true)...when it comes to relationships, one party (shall not mention any gender here) usually wants you when they can't have you.
Which is why, at most times you hear that it is important to be selfish at times because we have to look out for our own interest. otherwise, who would?
and when you do that,when you live your life in a way that you know and acknowledge the fact that the self must be loved..somehow, things will eventually work out.
things will flow (not necessarily in your ideal way) but simply in a way that "everything is going to be okay"..
but somehow,when you obsesses too much...things will automatically fuck up.
"too much," they say.
Well,i guess its evident enough that we are all in some sort of race to win.
You would wonder to win what..
i say, to win what you can't have.
I quote as well, "you wont miss the water till the well runs dry"

...

People only need you when they are vulnerable.

Snapshot Moments..

If only our brains was sufficient and capable enough to store those precious moment..
Those seconds where you discover irresistable beauty..
As we go through our daily lives..watching,seeing and observing our surroundings..
which usually last for a moment.
that one..little..short..moment.
Countless times you find yourself experiencing the beauty of nature..
not nature in simplistic terms, but rather the objects and elements we see with our eyes..whether living..or non-living.
so much of beauty left disclosed.
So many beautiful phases passing by..
So what do we do?
..we turn to the benefits of technology---the camera phone.

The sky is so mesmerising..there are so many different versions that makes it beautiful..

Best moments would be the morning or the evening sky..

..Have we forgotten to appreciate the sun before it fades away?

Hop onto the LRT on a typical work-day..

..catch a view of our town..its as though there's always something new being constructed..developing nation,they say.

sometimes you can't help but wonder how would KL look like in the next 10 years..would you recognize it?

Take a drive down to town..

..watch people rushing here and there..

..enjoy the empty streets during the night,accompanied by your favourite music..

Get stuck in a jam,look at the cars around you..and realize how robotic life can be..and wonder "does anybody see this beauty?"

or are we too caught up with our "important" agendas..

Take a drive out of town..

Look around you..

behold the scenery of greeneries and blue sky..

..just taste the sweetness of the simplest parts of nature.

Lets expand our views, crawl out of our hectic lives to take a breather..

Just breathe..

Nothing.

A glimpse of shadow

Shaded by ray of light

Pain blinded by Fog

Vision blurred by Mist.

Feelings blown by wind..

Thoughts dissolve to air..

Left to a blank sheet.

..painted in dead black

Staring up above.

staring down below.

staring here and there...

and here at no-where.

Let Be the emptiness.

be not the slave..

of ravaging demons

..play games of mind

Be still time froze.

fire mellowed by ice..

prick of steel knife

Flow blood of numbness..

Avoid paranoia.

Noting from AG.
How to curb obsessive behaviour?
aka. how to not-give-a-shit?

-keep yourself busy
..by socializing
..avoiding boredom

-do something worthy in your life.
..whatever that credible to you

-emphasize the fact that "I'm the best you can ever have"
.."your loss,bitch"

*hehe*

Rant about Loneliness.

As you get older..
You find yourself getting more and more familiar with what it means to be alone..
Could it be that due this fear of isolation, people then resort to marriage..?
that way, you will always have someone beside you to wake up to..
someone physically present within the vicinity...
so that you will never have to feel the emptiness
or the quietness you indulge in
all that's visible is the voices in your head and heart..

After an enlightening conversation the other day with NH,I realized that in so many ways....
there are people out there who goes through the same shit as you do..(duh)
i mean I've always known that but its funny when she said,"The 200 voices in my head..."

*random*

What does it mean to be alone anyway?
We know of countless individuals out there in this world who thinks that they are lonely..
who feels lonely..
If you think of it in a large scale,in comparison to the population on this planet.
shit.
you are nothing.

But when you look at the context of your existence within this globe.
hmm...maybe.
maybe, you are not alone.

The only way to sort of make yourself feel better is by creating close ties within your surrounding.
within what you know and who you know.
create your own little world.
that way,you should never feel lonely because you have a 'world' in which your existence is visible.

but who are we bull-shitting right?
Lets see..
after your mamak sessions at 1am in the morning.
or your crazy night-out in the town at 3am..
or your yam-cha session..
whatever session you have with other people..
in the end of the day...you retreat..
go home..
in your room.

*cricket*cricket*

Don't get me wrong.
Quiet + alone-time is NECESSARY.
But i believe there are people out there who have too much of it.
whereby being alone is not really their choice anymore.

as i said..
getting older not only means getting more experienced and wiser..
it also means getting weaker..
fear of life.
fear of the end.

Fear of being alone.
Slowly...you find that your life goal changes..
You go for simplified things like security.

Not so much of a big hero anymore,huh?

what a pointless post.