People tell me that I'm privileged to have seen and been to the places that I have visited. I often see this particular look in their eyes when they say these words to me. My weakness is that I search for this other look of understanding because I want to share what I had felt.
I question that search all the time, with all these contradicting thoughts.
A lot of times I'm not sure what it means to 'work hard' in our daily responsibilities. But I feel the struggle of desire and want, which is perhaps the essence of this effort we endure in our everyday lives.
A recent spontaneous decision had brought me back to the feeling of greatness, where the word 'paradise' was re-defined yet again. I've been labeling far too many places 'paradise' and I continue to seek for other forms of expression for those sacred destinations. Will I ever reach this one fine day that Paradise no longer strikes my attention?
I highly doubt that.
Forget conventional talks about astrology,but I'd like to pick out one element about Aquarians whereby they are absolutely drawn to water. I don't know how true this means of categorization may be, but I really believe in that theory. Once again,its feelings that I don't have words for.
I've always had a good balance for discipline aside from my aimlessness. When I space out(as what people always claim of me) I find my way back here to this so-called reality. But I have been procrastinating like never before, and taking my responsibilities with far too little care. I can't help but think,that maybe these duties of mine no longer makes sense to me. they are no longer important because there's just so much more out there to live for. Sure, I've been told that it's all just a phase and soon enough as age starts to catch up, I'll forget this mentality of mine and succumb to the majority.
I'm sorry, but that there, is my struggle,my fight in this life. To be able to live in the way that I want to live,regardless of the warnings and do's/don'ts you claim I should follow.
How easy it is to live without making these mistakes.How boring our memories will be without these wrong-doings.
I remember how it felt to be heart-broken through human relationships. But have you ever had your heart broken by an experience?
To part away from "such great heights", we put ourselves through it only make a reminder that that's our reason to live.
We break away from all these good moments only to learn to appreciate them on greater extents in future.
We say goodbye, only to find a way to say hello again.
You're environment is so crucial to the way you plan to live, and if we don't realize that..I'd say we're just wasting away the best things that life has to offer. and it's unfortunate that sometimes,we don't learn to be happy for others, as much as we can be happy for ourselves.
I'll get over this framework that seems as though time had stopped. It's pretty great to feel like you're in a vacuum every now and then.
I question that search all the time, with all these contradicting thoughts.
A lot of times I'm not sure what it means to 'work hard' in our daily responsibilities. But I feel the struggle of desire and want, which is perhaps the essence of this effort we endure in our everyday lives.
A recent spontaneous decision had brought me back to the feeling of greatness, where the word 'paradise' was re-defined yet again. I've been labeling far too many places 'paradise' and I continue to seek for other forms of expression for those sacred destinations. Will I ever reach this one fine day that Paradise no longer strikes my attention?
I highly doubt that.
Forget conventional talks about astrology,but I'd like to pick out one element about Aquarians whereby they are absolutely drawn to water. I don't know how true this means of categorization may be, but I really believe in that theory. Once again,its feelings that I don't have words for.
I've always had a good balance for discipline aside from my aimlessness. When I space out(as what people always claim of me) I find my way back here to this so-called reality. But I have been procrastinating like never before, and taking my responsibilities with far too little care. I can't help but think,that maybe these duties of mine no longer makes sense to me. they are no longer important because there's just so much more out there to live for. Sure, I've been told that it's all just a phase and soon enough as age starts to catch up, I'll forget this mentality of mine and succumb to the majority.
I'm sorry, but that there, is my struggle,my fight in this life. To be able to live in the way that I want to live,regardless of the warnings and do's/don'ts you claim I should follow.
How easy it is to live without making these mistakes.How boring our memories will be without these wrong-doings.
I remember how it felt to be heart-broken through human relationships. But have you ever had your heart broken by an experience?
To part away from "such great heights", we put ourselves through it only make a reminder that that's our reason to live.
We break away from all these good moments only to learn to appreciate them on greater extents in future.
We say goodbye, only to find a way to say hello again.
You're environment is so crucial to the way you plan to live, and if we don't realize that..I'd say we're just wasting away the best things that life has to offer. and it's unfortunate that sometimes,we don't learn to be happy for others, as much as we can be happy for ourselves.
I'll get over this framework that seems as though time had stopped. It's pretty great to feel like you're in a vacuum every now and then.
Only then,we remember what it means to feel Alive.
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