Snapshot Moments..

If only our brains was sufficient and capable enough to store those precious moment..
Those seconds where you discover irresistable beauty..
As we go through our daily lives..watching,seeing and observing our surroundings..
which usually last for a moment.
that one..little..short..moment.
Countless times you find yourself experiencing the beauty of nature..
not nature in simplistic terms, but rather the objects and elements we see with our eyes..whether living..or non-living.
so much of beauty left disclosed.
So many beautiful phases passing by..
So what do we do?
..we turn to the benefits of technology---the camera phone.

The sky is so mesmerising..there are so many different versions that makes it beautiful..

Best moments would be the morning or the evening sky..

..Have we forgotten to appreciate the sun before it fades away?

Hop onto the LRT on a typical work-day..

..catch a view of our town..its as though there's always something new being constructed..developing nation,they say.

sometimes you can't help but wonder how would KL look like in the next 10 years..would you recognize it?

Take a drive down to town..

..watch people rushing here and there..

..enjoy the empty streets during the night,accompanied by your favourite music..

Get stuck in a jam,look at the cars around you..and realize how robotic life can be..and wonder "does anybody see this beauty?"

or are we too caught up with our "important" agendas..

Take a drive out of town..

Look around you..

behold the scenery of greeneries and blue sky..

..just taste the sweetness of the simplest parts of nature.

Lets expand our views, crawl out of our hectic lives to take a breather..

Just breathe..

Nothing.

A glimpse of shadow

Shaded by ray of light

Pain blinded by Fog

Vision blurred by Mist.

Feelings blown by wind..

Thoughts dissolve to air..

Left to a blank sheet.

..painted in dead black

Staring up above.

staring down below.

staring here and there...

and here at no-where.

Let Be the emptiness.

be not the slave..

of ravaging demons

..play games of mind

Be still time froze.

fire mellowed by ice..

prick of steel knife

Flow blood of numbness..

Avoid paranoia.

Noting from AG.
How to curb obsessive behaviour?
aka. how to not-give-a-shit?

-keep yourself busy
..by socializing
..avoiding boredom

-do something worthy in your life.
..whatever that credible to you

-emphasize the fact that "I'm the best you can ever have"
.."your loss,bitch"

*hehe*

Rant about Loneliness.

As you get older..
You find yourself getting more and more familiar with what it means to be alone..
Could it be that due this fear of isolation, people then resort to marriage..?
that way, you will always have someone beside you to wake up to..
someone physically present within the vicinity...
so that you will never have to feel the emptiness
or the quietness you indulge in
all that's visible is the voices in your head and heart..

After an enlightening conversation the other day with NH,I realized that in so many ways....
there are people out there who goes through the same shit as you do..(duh)
i mean I've always known that but its funny when she said,"The 200 voices in my head..."

*random*

What does it mean to be alone anyway?
We know of countless individuals out there in this world who thinks that they are lonely..
who feels lonely..
If you think of it in a large scale,in comparison to the population on this planet.
shit.
you are nothing.

But when you look at the context of your existence within this globe.
hmm...maybe.
maybe, you are not alone.

The only way to sort of make yourself feel better is by creating close ties within your surrounding.
within what you know and who you know.
create your own little world.
that way,you should never feel lonely because you have a 'world' in which your existence is visible.

but who are we bull-shitting right?
Lets see..
after your mamak sessions at 1am in the morning.
or your crazy night-out in the town at 3am..
or your yam-cha session..
whatever session you have with other people..
in the end of the day...you retreat..
go home..
in your room.

*cricket*cricket*

Don't get me wrong.
Quiet + alone-time is NECESSARY.
But i believe there are people out there who have too much of it.
whereby being alone is not really their choice anymore.

as i said..
getting older not only means getting more experienced and wiser..
it also means getting weaker..
fear of life.
fear of the end.

Fear of being alone.
Slowly...you find that your life goal changes..
You go for simplified things like security.

Not so much of a big hero anymore,huh?

what a pointless post.

Babel

..was such an amazing movie.The music lifts you off your feet.Makes your mind wander off..This song do not need words to describe..The melody gives you such an amazing feeling.solemn.numb.nostalgic.thoughtful.dreaming.........there is many 'worlds' out there i have not laid my eyes on......too many versions of reality to seek out for.Too many untouched experiences..

Monday.

*yawn*

Peeks through the curtains.

Crawls back to bed.

*groan*

Spinning Away

Reunion with an Old time favourite..

"Up on a hill
as the day dissolves
With my pencil turning moments into life
One by one, all the stars appear
As the great winds of the planet spiral in
Spinning away, like the night sky
In the million insect storm, the constellations form
On a hill, under a raven sky
I have no idea exactly where I've been
Some kind of change, some kind of spinning away
With every single line moving further out in time
Spinning away, like the night sky
I have no idea exactly where I've been
And here, or there
And here, or there
some kind of spinning away.."

L-O-V-E.

*Taken fr unknown source

Role Playing

Fascinating...

..that our everyday life is almost as if it represents a stage performance.(personally,i think IT IS a staged act).One moment you find yourself contented with the familiarity you have with you inner thoughts and principles. The next moment, you find yourself behaving in ways that you never thought you would.
At various occasions we own different masks and costumes to play around with.
You...did many things which was very questionable.
You began to make jokes which you once thought was extremely un-funny.
You started to engage in games(not literally) you thought you would never play.
You started giving a shit about unnecessary issues.
You got caught-up with the 'in-thing'--simply to blend in with others.
You participated in activities that was never really in your list of interest.
You spoke--and the words that came out was merely what the other person wanted to hear.
You smiled and laughed--and you realize that the joy was never really there.

You knew which person to be at the right moment.
Adaptation they say.
We are 'animals' after all aren't we?

Sadly...

...that eventually acting becomes a 'job' we find ourselves committed to.
when you try to hard to maintain what you think you know of yourself..you realize that that ' thing' you held on to was nothing but fragility.
Suddenly, in the midst of your daily activities,you paused for a moment.Stepped out of the situation and look down upon your own being.
..and you say, "oh...my..gosh....when did i become this person..."

...that 'role playing' is ideally one of human's talent.
you become confused of whether there is a real or fake after all.
you get carried away that it becomes an addiction to 'be somebody else'.
you use it as a tool to get away with things or simply, for self-advantage.
you gain paranoia and suspicion of the world around you.
you gain the power to create emotions at different places and time.

...that there's a possibility that in the end of the day,we are all here just to make USE of each other.
In so many ways----for self-interest.
Think hard.

I guess one does not really need to attend acting classes if ever interested in drama lessons.
All you have to do is to look within your inner-self......

"Rain drops keep falling on my head.."

What is it about the rain?
that leaves one feeling nostalgic,
reflective,
slow,
dreamy,
thoughtful,
emotional,
empty.
sleepy?
Is it about the weather that's cold,wet and moist?
Or the sound of the wind howling its way through the window gaps?
It is raining now.
Staring out into the nothingness but heavy drizzles and forceful winds.
What is it about weathers and how it affects a person mood-radar?
The atmosphere plays our feelings.
Its day-time brought into darkness by the rainfall.
On a Sunday.
No one is one the street.Very little cars roaming on the road.
On one end you have the homeless person taking cover under a shop lot.
You have the motorcyclists who forgot to bring their raincoats,huddled under a highway bridge.
you have the happy family cruising to their destination around 50-60km/h.
you have those without transport,waiting patiently at the bus stop or taxi stands.
The ones at home?
Just lay back, quit questioning and enjoy the image you see.
Rainfall is a peculiar thing.Everything out there becomes different.
Just as how different the world would be without light.
As to how different it is now when everything is wet.

Turning Point.

*Picture courtesy of Deviantart user.

During school days they taught the poem "The Road Not Taken".Basically the story about the route,and how it branches out into a fork-road.The choices made,shall be one which is not regrettable.Within the time span of your life,you find that on many occasions, you have chosen to settle in your little nest.We very often address as our 'comfort zone'.
Question is,what becomes to that guarded spot of yours when you see a range of choices up ahead?Not just choices about what colour of shoes to wear,how should you do you hair,what should you eat today..blah,BLAH,blah.
We're talking about decisions that are bound to change your life.
The turning points.
No matter how much you try to run away from it.No matter how hard you try to avoid the upcoming events.No matter how far you run...
It becomes inevitable.
How does one attempt to crawl out from a self-made hole?
There are two perspectives on this.
You have people who LOVE changes.who craves for it.who seeks for it.who desires it.
You have people who HATE changes.who runs away.Who lives in denial.who lie to themselves.who lives in fear.
But in the first place,should there even be a room for one to have preferences?
Is it merely a life event instilled within our systems?
But I thought humans by nature have the ability to control their lives through decision-making processes.
So does that mean that when a person 'chooses' to stay in one spot, it becomes possible?
I guess to a certain extend, is it possible.The reason why this 'choice' never works out is because EVERYTHING else around you is constantly changing. In their respective paces.
Eventually,people become pressured by society's expectations..patterns..rules..basically the way 'normal' things should work.


I guess when the time comes, one has no choice but to make decisions.The agony is probably the process you go through before the choice is made.The insecurity,doubt,paranoia,assumptions...etc..etc..
Lets face it, we can never be TOO careful with how we live our lives.Its logical to be cautious about your driving skills, but is that applicable when it comes to life events?
Because after all, when the moment of change begins,you find yourself flowing smoothly..As though the previous days of worries and drama was nothing but unnecessary stress.