What is insanity?

Ponder:
Would the world be a better place if mankind are subjected to unconditional autonomy?
Not simply cheap talk of 'freedom' or 'independence'.
But the right to act and behave as they please.
If there was one particular reality I long to engage in is..
the 'crazy' dude who just passed by your car.
muttering.
cursing.
blabbing.
smiling.
laughing.
shouting.
the bloke who has probably never changed his outfit for days.
heck,months.
the woman who does a kung-fu stance in the middle of the street (whilst facing her opponent:the stray dog)
the person who dares to stare at you like there's no tomorrow.
in which u probably don't have the balls to return the gaze.
the man who fulfills the similar task as our 'faithful' MPPJ buddies.
picking up your shits.
never gets paid like the others.
finding joy in your trash.
their version of assets i guess.
what's important to you, is bullshit to them.
question is, are they truly so distant,
so far away from the 'normal' society?
or, are they a reflection of 'free-willy'?
merely a representation of your hidden 'freedom'?

*thought: freedom= overrated.idealistic for most.

~Vibe: Ministry of Sound: 2002 Ibiza chill-out.

Explosion.

R-u-n...

running at a fast pace,

feel your heart thumping.

B-b-Beating..

tearing your chest open.

Climb...

Up the hill,

feel your legs stinging.

Aching..*pant*

muscles tightening.

Reach the peak..
survey around.
no one else but you,
and 'world' you know of.
Everything else distant.

SCREAAAAmmm.....!

Scream.

scream.

scream so loud..

SO piercing..

Roar if you must.

no room for the monotonousness.

Till you're breathless.

Out of air.

*gasping*

Feel your throat burning.

Voice cracking.

Tears streaming..

Head pounding.

Body static.

Face numbed.

Today, you live.

*all graphics are taken from a range of sources.unless stated otherwise.

~Vibe: Theatre of Tragedy

a-n-g-e-r.

for what is kept away.

for the perennial curiosity.

for the undying need to know.

for the ludicrousness.

for the tolerance.

for the ambiguity.

for the stupidity.

for the unnecessary emotions.

for the irony.

for the truth that is not met.

for the weakness.

for the queasiness.

for sanity.

*words for storytelling.

Keep Breathing, and stand a chance to win 'Life choices'.

"You just wanne be sad"
..does the sentence ring a bell?

Ladies and gentlemen,presentinggg....the 'Make-your-own-Reality" game show.
The game is fairly simple.
First of all, audiences need to understand the main objectives of this game:

To shape and mold one's life,in other words,creating a favorable version of reality.

Upon participation, here are some of the rules of the game:

-Reality is a myth,it is a non-physical feature in which we are able to grasp,analyze and modify.
-What you desire will be derived through the simple process of imagination,determination and faith.
-what you despise or fear will only come to haunt you so long as you believe in it.
-The positive energy will result to satisfying opportunities, achievements and awards.
-the negative energy will slam you with an additional weight of disastrous events.
-Feelings are merely a state of mind, whereby you are the master of the game.

When you indulge too much, when you bear to much comfort in where u hide, you have successfully created your own barrier..
Which stops you from crossing the borders.
Borders that keeps you 'safe' from what is 'wrong'.
Barb wires that secludes you from the 'outside'.
Walls that trap you away from the beyond ordinary.
One becomes stagnant.

standing motionless.

you become lost and bluntly unaware that things in life still passes by.
With or without you.

The trick of the game is simple apparently...
you are what you make of yourself.
you form your very own self.
You create your own tracks to walk on.

So,if you're currently stuck somewhere,somewhere,somehow out there...snap out of it..

No one if going to stop for you, so keep moving..

*note: -Writing is fiction.

-and As always, actions speak louder than words.

CloudBreak: For all you ArtSy-farts out there..

So,i got this email from Priya asking for free-publicity through our respective sites..(lol)so here it is.(Gasp!Priya!ur on the papers today!)i'm too lazy to write about it so here's the site and a brief info:

Cloudbreak works with young people to expose them to vital life skills through imaginative exercises. These modules stimulate and sharpen young minds improve memory, build self-confidence, organize thoughts and articulate ideas.
..for more information: www.mycloudbreak.com

A Pseudo-World..

how many times have you plastered a smile across your face when you meet someone,despite the shitty day your going through?
yes.the fake smile.the mythical 'happiness'.the illusionary joy.


why do people strive so hard to prolong such damaging habits?


we are so bounded by rules and norms. the 'right' way of living,they say.the 'ideal' steps into a normal life.


doesn't that mean that we are for-going our true self?the truth of your emotions from within?


When you're feeling fucked up,why do you force yourself into a smile?


politeness?manners?responsibility?obligations?decency?


you tell me.


don't people get tired of it?or get freaking sick of the repetitions.


you are the greatest mockery to your self.


a fuckin joke.


wouldn't life be much easier if there was pure honesty and truth.the 'right' answer from whats within.


is it real?


i don't know.


it is time for mankind to generate a larger sense of understanding..empathy,maybe.


that way,there's no need for one to hide the true emotions of the self.


be straight-forward.


fuck all the 'being nice' and 'kind' shits.


it is nothing but a waste of time.


wake up people?


these continuous lies and denial will only bring you further from where you can actually be.
if you have something to say to someone,just let it out already.

Another Melody..

"When you slowly close your eyes
Replay the moment in your mind
Breathe in and give it away
Breathe out and give it away
When you slowly close your eyes
Replay the moment in your mind
Breathe in and give it away
Breathe out and give it away"
heres another tune i recommend when your driving fast on the street..put it on a good volume(loud)..and just drive and drive..it makes the road YOURs.the journey yours..it gives a feeling..a feeling for you to just go ahead and do it..just press on the accelarator and go.No looking back.no turning back.
there's only one way to go..watch everything pass you by.meaningless objects.a fragile being in a fragile creation...atempting to move like the speed of light..Come with me again into this other journey..

..an Addiction.

thanks to an unusual outing yesterday,i discovered this tune..and he was right..the lyrics are beautiful..
There's nothing sweeter than an addiction to a melody..
a tune..
it gives you a special kinda feeling..especially when the package comes with meaningful lyrics..
It takes u into another world,possibly an imaginary one..yet,extremely desirable..
makes you want to fly away..literally.
makes you want to share this 'feel' with that someone..
that longing..
the taste..
"is it love"...
I urge you to come into my illusionary world and enjoy the vibes from the music~

-Panic Mode-

Is it REALLY 2 more days to show-time?
FUCK.fuck.fuck.fuck.
this assignment is already banging me in the head.
everything is a mess.Talk about drama.
Screw drama people.why do you even bother??

i NEED to pull myself together.
i need energy.
i need strength.
i need.
I need.

Running at a fast pace
Never-ending attempts.
Phobia.
F-e-a-r.
Insecurity.
Momentary feelings.
Merely a phase.

The agony?
Its the process.
the journey.
Walking on shattered glasses.
Pain.
Blood.
cuts.
bruise.
You never stop.

..Where do we stand?

..bali.. I realize that I'm attracted to pictures that portrays some short of infinity.i mean,i took these pictures on various occasions,without realizing it!The ultimate unknown(Ooo..).The never-ending route(Ahh..).A place that leaves us standing no-where(..uhuh..).Before the break of dawn,standing outside on the (so-called) balcony,such utter silence.everything seems to still--trees are not moving,streets are empty..the only thing that's apparently 'there' are the streetlights,occasional dog howling and cats,well,miaowing?*ha ha*.This silence bug the shit out of me.
i mean,where the hell do we stand.The past,present or future?

..Iran.. You would think that you're currently standing in the present,but then you constantly hear Ur thoughts pacing up and down your head,and when you actually make the effort to identify your flow of thoughts,you realize that the things that your thinking about either comprises of your past (events that continue to bug you till this very day,without you realizing,possibly,very often--ignored),and the future(things your 'suppose' to do,unfinished tasks,hopes,dreams,aims...blah,blah..)

Dammit,but i thought we're suppose to be living in the present?Is that even possible?

..P.j.. i mean,what shapes your reality?you think Ur living in reality but when you try to evaluate what goes on within yourself,what can you come up with?it's all so...*vague*,plenty of uncertainties,doubts..worries. Countless times people say 'get busy' with the things that you have to do..responsibilities and such.

But how long can it distract you?then again,distract you from what?'thinking?'.that's insane,can't run away from thoughts. probably 10 years ago you would think that "hey,maybe when i get to my twenties,I'll be far too busy with my life agendas" that maybe,just maybe..you'll stop yourself from worrying,just for a second.

ha!naive thoughts.Tsk.tsk.

..Morocco..Thanks Aina..

Today,i wonder: Where the hell are we now?

..klPac..

"Morning has Broken.."

...when i was little i remember waking up in the mornings with this horrible and sickening feeling in my stomach.i mean i could never figure out what the hell does the feeling mean.it was usually one of those feelings u get on Sunday nights(cause the following day would be Monday,the first day of school).i thought over the years i would have overcome that 'feeling'.Possibly become one of those people who LOVE the mornings,who find 'beauty' in waking up,well,i find that most mornings I'd rather not wake up.forever if i could.(okay,too morbid)..how i do i even explain it.okay,imagine opening your eyes,and realizing,"it's another day today"...what's worst is when you have absolutely nothing to look forward to.sure,u have responsibilities,tasks,things-to-do..etc..etc..i mean,which is worst?waking up to so much to do or waking up to absolutely nothing to do.after you open your eyes and realize that there's this repugnant feeling dominating your whole body..what do u do?well,usually the body can react in so many ways..for one,its impossible to go back to sleep cause' there's too much fear inside.there's the squinting of the eyes,toss and turning,twitching stomach,rapid breathing..etc..etc..all of em' ball-ed down to one word:DISCOMFORT!so,if you're one of those people who wakes up with chirping birds and butterflies flapping all over your room.Back off.or better yet,release some of em' into my room cause there's nothing worst than to wake up to this 'feeling'..i guess that's why at times its pretty nice to have someone sleeping beside you..a companion..a somebody..that way when u wake up..and u see that person next to u..u can smile to yourself and cuddle up...and go back to sleep.or there is an alternative that is if u put on one of your happy playlist on your media player and slowly find your way to sanity along with the melodies.or u could wake up extremely late for class/work/appointment and rush like no body's business,that way,there's no room for that 'feeling'.or maybe,those who actually have motives and purposes in their lives..agendas or responsibilities..they too can be occupied enough.but then again,there are those who simply live based on their emotions...who can't run away from their emotionality's...thus,where does that leave them?no point reminiscing on the past--back to the good o' days whereby despite that 'feeling',u end up going to school..play with ur friends,eat,play again,nap..and whatever it is that kids then use to do..the feeling dissolves...but i guess as u get older,Ur much more aware of Ur well-being..of every feeling that comes and go...so this morning 'feeling' is probably here to stay..till the day that you can reach serenity perhaps..peace,calm,happiness..even though its temporary,but its worth getting away even for just a second..urgh,good morning world.