clogged.

Having 3 notepads and 'saved drafts' doesn't help when you seem to have stories to tell,but only a handful of words to spare. Somebody should invent this machine that detects the traces of our thoughts into this monitor,where it transforms them into something visualized.
So that I can look at it from a distance and say things like,
"Ohhhh........so thats what i was thinking about during that time, when i was sipping on to my coffee"
"mhhmmm,so thats what was running through my head while I was brainstorming ideas for the bowling tournament".
"RIGHHTTT, that was that other thing that was at the back of my head when I driving back home in the traffic crawl".

Kinda like how somebody should really get going with that whole time-machine thing.

somebody.

A stage and an audience

Whenever you attend a theatre or musical performance, ever took a good few seconds to glance away from the stage to take notice of the audience?If you take a few steps back to look at the image of your very own-self amongst the crowd, as they gaze intently on to the performers ---what do u discover?
After having spent a pleasant Sunday evening at The Actors Studio for a string of live acoustic performance by our lovely local-musicians, (forget the fact i walked in late.grin) i was absolutely amazed by what I saw within the crowd. Not only were they supportive but they were somehow emotionally attached to the music. I gazed into their faces hoping to understand what they're expressions held. Several had their eyes closed with a tiny smile, while some had their eyes locked on-bodies unmoved. Some were swaying to the melody,while others had they feet tapping to the beats. Observing their body language somehow told me mini stories of what the person had in their minds. Through assumption,of course. I remember noticing this one guy, who had his head laid back-eyes closed - just smiling to himself as Izzy was playing her tune.
It times like these i wish i could read minds to justify the stories i made up in my head about them.
Alot of times we forget that besides the limelight that shines upon the stage, there's just so much going on within the viewers as well. And its elements like this that drives my love for live performances - to appreciate how people just become united for this one moment to share their mutual passion.. :)

Sunset Tales

Oi amiga, do u remember our random boat ride out to the sea?

It was truly beautiful, to be sailing straight into the sunset.

I remember the sound of those sincere laughter, accompanied by the icy-cold beer in our hands. It didn't matter that we didn't know our directions, all that made sense was everything that we saw before our eyes..

and i guess..that was more than enough..

NYC Subway Blues

I just rediscovered this video, which was taken when i was waiting for my train on 59th street.
What struck me there and then?
it was all the people and their movements that was going on.
I wondered, did anybody notice that man who struck those amazing tunes that echoed through the tunnel? the sound was just bouncing off and on those underground walls, was it not good enough for everyone to just pause for a good second to listen?

Melodies

the power of sound.

vibrations.

frequency.

and how it travels through our body, in ways that we can't see through the naked eye.yet, still be able to witness the effects and then know its ever so true.

and All merely through what we feel.

these great movies we have watched, and had been touched ever so deep.would they have brought upon the same results without our hearing?

all these visionary pieces we lock our eyes on. in which we understand through words and vocabulary that we have come in terms with. that we have agreed to what it should and should not mean.
how different would they be if it had missed out that one part of sound? the part in which we associate ourselves with yet never ever knowing what the relationship really is.

is it there to compliment the many parts of us that apparently exist,yet proven not through words or images? but somehow,through these sensations that are not physically proven to be there,yet ever so REAL?

i'm wishing to have this crazy ability to just take a pencil and let these vibrations pencil itself away onto a big,empty canvas. only to take several steps back to see the larger picture. of what they connections may or may not be. or how these hidden mechanisms work its way into our daily systems.

haha, O-KAY....i blame Sundays for passing the green light to drift further away into another world.

Access to Virtual-world denied.

There's just too much to look-out for when u live in a city...Why is it that all these expectations that we strive for become so meaningless on some days?

I'm thinking,time is ticking by the seconds as my fingers tap on to each letter tab.
god forbid these great movies made.
i truly respect these people who drew up stories that had attracted our largest sense of empathy.
Mr. Benjamin button would say, 'nothing is eternal'.
the idea of time and how it moves towards one way of progress as to how we understand it. what were to happen if this 'progress' had been re-arranged in a way that we had never really been in term with?
should that be a depressing thought or a gratitude to the art of change.
I'm imagining..
life to be evaluated not through the change of physicality that comes with time,
but rather through the amount of experiences and moments we gather,
that eventually defines who we are.
that answers the reason to where we stand.
if civilisation had not been educating us of these 'ways of living', would turning a year older be yet another day of Hanukkah or Christmas?
i wonder,
would our deepest kept worries of physical deterioration still be an issue?

4 February

One year ago...

On an open balcony along a little room on Green St, a group of people of various background came together to celebrate..

I remember thinking that my birthday really shouldn't matter,because it really should be just another day. However the turn-out said otherwise, I was granted the company of people who cared. Or at least who wanted me to know that it did matter.

Was it the suprising visits of random people?Or the presence of these special street-boys that had the ukulele strumming all night?I remember,taking a step back to have an overview of what was before my eyes. It was these people, who walked into my life. Their relevance were not necessarily measured through the time span that we knew each other.It was merely ...the moment,that had brought everybody together. I guess there and then,it made sense for everybody to be where they were.

..and then One Year Later..
on a regular weekday, in a classy lounge along the streets of Kuala Lumpur..

I was taken by suprise again.

and had been Given the privilege of being celebrated by people who had already walked into my life for a fair amount of time. And once again,I stepped back and saw another moment. Far different from what it had been, of time,place, and people.

Yet, it had brought a smile to my face.

I am grateful to be surrounded by the 'good people' that come and go..This, I will never forget.

Random 25

devirgined.
First tag respond~thanks to them who shared..
Joanne lee's bungee jump desires (i believe that u will do it one day-its GREAT), NH's theory about stripping naked when spooked out (BAHAHAHA) and Farah Rani's belief in meeting her dream-guy in bookstores(didn't work out for me,hope it does for u).

Funny enough, I actually wanted to know what these random 25 facts/goals were.

1)I have some real dark secrets.Some of which will follow me to my death-bed.
2)I am attracted to water.Every now and then i need to be associated with the pool,sea,pond,waterfall,what-have-yous, to avoid insanity.
3)I like analysing every breath i take when I'm surrounded by nature.
4)I question EVERYTHING.
5)Sometimes i feel like i don't know who I am.
6)Alot of times people assume that 'we get along', but truth is, i simply adapt very well.
7)i don't really know to perform angry reactions.
8)Every time i flush the 'squat-toilet-bowl', I leap off and move far away before the water flushes.it makes me nervous,those flushes.haha
9)I don't really know how to pray.
10)I don't like asking for help.
11)I'm always searching for something that i don't know of.
12)I lived 10 months far away from home, the way I wanted to live.I never felt more alive in my entire existence.
13)I stare and observe alot to understand people's feeling.
14)I have music collections that make me shiver. I enjoy music orgasms.
15)I try to find a melody to fit in EVERY moment encountered.(as much as i can anyway)
16)I get fat easily.
17)I am passionate.I would go the distance to get what i want.
18)Europe is my next destination.
19)i write messages to myself and stick them all over my room.
20)I saw some of the most amazing places in the world.i wish everyday to share my stories with somebody.
21)I'm a walking day-dreamer.I space out really well.
22)Being in high-up places makes me feel stronger.
23)I use to believe that i had magic powers.and i would stare into objects to see if i can move them with my mind.haha.i think i still belief in it today.
24)Every now and then i go MIA. i think i live in a couple of different worlds.
25)I don't really like to talk about myself :)

hmmm.