Melodies

the power of sound.

vibrations.

frequency.

and how it travels through our body, in ways that we can't see through the naked eye.yet, still be able to witness the effects and then know its ever so true.

and All merely through what we feel.

these great movies we have watched, and had been touched ever so deep.would they have brought upon the same results without our hearing?

all these visionary pieces we lock our eyes on. in which we understand through words and vocabulary that we have come in terms with. that we have agreed to what it should and should not mean.
how different would they be if it had missed out that one part of sound? the part in which we associate ourselves with yet never ever knowing what the relationship really is.

is it there to compliment the many parts of us that apparently exist,yet proven not through words or images? but somehow,through these sensations that are not physically proven to be there,yet ever so REAL?

i'm wishing to have this crazy ability to just take a pencil and let these vibrations pencil itself away onto a big,empty canvas. only to take several steps back to see the larger picture. of what they connections may or may not be. or how these hidden mechanisms work its way into our daily systems.

haha, O-KAY....i blame Sundays for passing the green light to drift further away into another world.

Access to Virtual-world denied.

There's just too much to look-out for when u live in a city...Why is it that all these expectations that we strive for become so meaningless on some days?

I'm thinking,time is ticking by the seconds as my fingers tap on to each letter tab.
god forbid these great movies made.
i truly respect these people who drew up stories that had attracted our largest sense of empathy.
Mr. Benjamin button would say, 'nothing is eternal'.
the idea of time and how it moves towards one way of progress as to how we understand it. what were to happen if this 'progress' had been re-arranged in a way that we had never really been in term with?
should that be a depressing thought or a gratitude to the art of change.
I'm imagining..
life to be evaluated not through the change of physicality that comes with time,
but rather through the amount of experiences and moments we gather,
that eventually defines who we are.
that answers the reason to where we stand.
if civilisation had not been educating us of these 'ways of living', would turning a year older be yet another day of Hanukkah or Christmas?
i wonder,
would our deepest kept worries of physical deterioration still be an issue?

4 February

One year ago...

On an open balcony along a little room on Green St, a group of people of various background came together to celebrate..

I remember thinking that my birthday really shouldn't matter,because it really should be just another day. However the turn-out said otherwise, I was granted the company of people who cared. Or at least who wanted me to know that it did matter.

Was it the suprising visits of random people?Or the presence of these special street-boys that had the ukulele strumming all night?I remember,taking a step back to have an overview of what was before my eyes. It was these people, who walked into my life. Their relevance were not necessarily measured through the time span that we knew each other.It was merely ...the moment,that had brought everybody together. I guess there and then,it made sense for everybody to be where they were.

..and then One Year Later..
on a regular weekday, in a classy lounge along the streets of Kuala Lumpur..

I was taken by suprise again.

and had been Given the privilege of being celebrated by people who had already walked into my life for a fair amount of time. And once again,I stepped back and saw another moment. Far different from what it had been, of time,place, and people.

Yet, it had brought a smile to my face.

I am grateful to be surrounded by the 'good people' that come and go..This, I will never forget.

Random 25

devirgined.
First tag respond~thanks to them who shared..
Joanne lee's bungee jump desires (i believe that u will do it one day-its GREAT), NH's theory about stripping naked when spooked out (BAHAHAHA) and Farah Rani's belief in meeting her dream-guy in bookstores(didn't work out for me,hope it does for u).

Funny enough, I actually wanted to know what these random 25 facts/goals were.

1)I have some real dark secrets.Some of which will follow me to my death-bed.
2)I am attracted to water.Every now and then i need to be associated with the pool,sea,pond,waterfall,what-have-yous, to avoid insanity.
3)I like analysing every breath i take when I'm surrounded by nature.
4)I question EVERYTHING.
5)Sometimes i feel like i don't know who I am.
6)Alot of times people assume that 'we get along', but truth is, i simply adapt very well.
7)i don't really know to perform angry reactions.
8)Every time i flush the 'squat-toilet-bowl', I leap off and move far away before the water flushes.it makes me nervous,those flushes.haha
9)I don't really know how to pray.
10)I don't like asking for help.
11)I'm always searching for something that i don't know of.
12)I lived 10 months far away from home, the way I wanted to live.I never felt more alive in my entire existence.
13)I stare and observe alot to understand people's feeling.
14)I have music collections that make me shiver. I enjoy music orgasms.
15)I try to find a melody to fit in EVERY moment encountered.(as much as i can anyway)
16)I get fat easily.
17)I am passionate.I would go the distance to get what i want.
18)Europe is my next destination.
19)i write messages to myself and stick them all over my room.
20)I saw some of the most amazing places in the world.i wish everyday to share my stories with somebody.
21)I'm a walking day-dreamer.I space out really well.
22)Being in high-up places makes me feel stronger.
23)I use to believe that i had magic powers.and i would stare into objects to see if i can move them with my mind.haha.i think i still belief in it today.
24)Every now and then i go MIA. i think i live in a couple of different worlds.
25)I don't really like to talk about myself :)

hmmm.

Mi Casa

A couple of evenings ago, I raced downstairs to my mini-backyard.Only because orange'y-shady lights kept peeking through my room's curtain.
As If it was trying to tell me, "hey, stop and look at me"..
and so I did.

The Unconcious Moon Sign?

So apparently the conscious astrology sign we ever so often pay attention to is the Sun sign. Yabby and I were discussing the relevance of our 'unconcious' side that depicts the way we tend to handle our lives- The moon sign. click.

cheryl yab says (2:00 PM):
DEFINITELY CANCER
cheryl yab says (2:00 PM):
YOU READ AND YOU WILL KNOWWWWW

and so,i Read:

MOON IN CANCER

Your personality is very similar to a person whose Moon is in Taurus. You are both great fans of relaxation and satisfaction. However you are different in that you lack either the stability or stubbornness of Taurus, (unless your Sun or Ascendant is in fact Taurus!) Your personality is rather supple and flexible. You are quite emotional. Your surroundings play a large role in your mood. When you are at home, or somewhere comfortable, you can be quite sociable, friendly and charitable. However when your environment tends to be less comforting, you tend to hide yourself. You are conservative in nature. You may be close to your family, your mother in particular. You may be strongly attached to her, and may bear a strong resemblance to her with regards to your personality. Unless the Sun was in Leo, Aries or Sagittarius (these Signs are noted for their independence) when you were born, taking advice from others and following through on others plans will bring you good luck. You are very perceptive about others feelings. This makes you a good actor or mimic. This sensitivity also may be an indication of psychic abilities. You are strongly attracted to water, whether you are aware of it or not. You may live or vacation near large bodies of water, and may enjoy travelling by ship.

I don't believe in justifying my life with these 'predictions' of people personalities. But who thought about them in the first place, how do we ever know its True,Truth?
I balled down to the idea that perhaps we will never know, but its still very much relevant to most people's life. Because you find these words that 'strike' you. That you can somehow relate to. In the end of the day, its all a choice,once again. You choose what makes sense to you, and filter the parts that don't mean anything.

*back to work. *grin*

Favourite Section..

..of the 24 hour cycle would have to be around 5-ish pm, when the sun is laying lower into the sky..Especially on the days you go home from work,amidst the unavoidable KL traffic crawl. I can't help but be so drawn to the colours in the sky. the sun hides itself in between the layers of puffy white clouds and geometrical buildings .I squint my eyes to stare into the sun for the longest I can take before the white spots appear.
"It's so pretty, I need to absorb everything".
and then, The clouds somehow form 3-dimensional images that I only see in my dreams.

I am driving accompanied by music selections that vibrates at the right momentum through my entire body. All the congestion before my eyes eventually fades away into another dimension, as I willingly float away into a different zone. Driving my way into the direction where my agendas have assigned me to. Moving to where I'm 'suppose' to Be.
The sky is with me wherever I go, and so, 'it's okay'.

I'm thinking..

Sept,08- Last flight home.

do you remember that time?
When your eyes were laid
on the most unimaginable sight
you had ever imagine?
All you could feel
was this desperation,
a cry for answers.
"could this really be true?"
Left so frozen inside,
to just hold,
the self from exploding.
A feeling so great,
you learned,
a new way to being alive.
All you can see,
is but a dream,
of silent breaths,
When all your knowledge
of 'truth'
had been reborn
into revelations.
You open new doors
to the world of possibilities,
you think to yourself,
"so this was why
this life was worth living for".
only for those
meaningless days to wear off,
to granting reasons
to stay alive.
It melts away
your illusionary walls,
masks we wear every day.
Only to be so distant,
yet so close to 'home'.
of undying serenity,
uplifting you sky high..

Moments.

The magical Guarda de Embau. Held the strangest yet strongest energy, especially during winter, because the little village was almost empty.Somehow, it was The emptiness that had made the difference."It was there and then, I stopped breathing and felt 'home' "

Grateful.

To have been surrounded by musicians on various occasions.

Those chord-like voices, those delicate guitar strums.

those beating-drum momentums, those dancing-fingers on piano.

How you use your physicality as a vehicle to your inner-self.

to share a story through vibrations.

Its always an honour to be acquainted with individuals that has the soul for music.

To my friends who has the gift of crafting melodies,I salute you.

And thank you for sharing those musical moments with me.

Bem vindo 2009~

After reminiscing with 08',we agreed that last year was one of the best year for one to not forget.
Who would have thought that greatness in life are nothing but within your hands and would appear when least expected.
"Freedom" became a whole new terminology I came in terms with.
To free yourself from restraining thoughts is to move forward into new beginnings.
Free yourself from ideas that were never really true in the first place.
Up until experiences came by and told you what it should truly feel like.
And then we learn.
we learned.

only to re-pack our baggages by throwing out the unnecessary and stuffing in our fresh needs.
To game ourself for yet another venture into the unknown.
so, We bid farewell to one another, I kindly welcomed 09's as it made its way through the red carpet laid out. Whatever you may bring,I'm ready to do my part in living by the days.
To strive for more moments to savour into my little memory box.